Things have gotten better since that day. Am I still at my Dad’s…Yes yes I am but I feel good about it now…LOL That is the difference. I am excited about what’s coming my way now. Why am I writing this all now instead of after my desires have all…

Feeling the Fear and doing it anyway…going to motivational seminars…reading books…meditating…Praying..Asking When was it going to be my turn God? What’s wrong with me? I am a good person. I give and help others. Oh the nights I cried and cried…the Days I cried.. How often I beat up on…

I wondered if I focused my attention on those thoughts that made me feel better for as long as I still feel good doing so, if I can find even better feeling thoughts while I am still in this situation or condition? I started to make little games of it…

So instead of looking at what I didn’t have that I wanted to have and instead of looking for the result of what I was doing, I began to look at how I was feeling about what I didn’t have. Ahhhh now that was pretty evident. I really didn’t FEEL…